That was what it was about. Fear was strange for him and having felt it that strongly had freaked him out. Having the fear affect him so badly he'd almost killed three people in front of children freaked him out.
He knew the bad myths might have come, knew the fight might've turned more sour than it had, but in his eyes it was better risking it and being sure of himself than being thrown in a fight with other people and letting them down because his head wasn't in the game.
"I know how to fight in a team. I don't always like it but I know how. And I'm not stupid, I know every fight won't go that well. I know that better than most of the people here." He gritted his teeth. "So don't give me that 'control is an illusion' stuff when my dad taught me things like that since before I could even speak full sentences."
He'd been getting stuff like that his whole like.
"Of course control is an illusion. You think I don't know that? You think I magically think everything turns out just fine?!" He threw the controller at the floor so hard it broke. "Real life ain't stories, okay? Things never turn out okay."
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That was what it was about. Fear was strange for him and having felt it that strongly had freaked him out. Having the fear affect him so badly he'd almost killed three people in front of children freaked him out.
He knew the bad myths might have come, knew the fight might've turned more sour than it had, but in his eyes it was better risking it and being sure of himself than being thrown in a fight with other people and letting them down because his head wasn't in the game.
"I know how to fight in a team. I don't always like it but I know how. And I'm not stupid, I know every fight won't go that well. I know that better than most of the people here." He gritted his teeth. "So don't give me that 'control is an illusion' stuff when my dad taught me things like that since before I could even speak full sentences."
He'd been getting stuff like that his whole like.
"Of course control is an illusion. You think I don't know that? You think I magically think everything turns out just fine?!" He threw the controller at the floor so hard it broke. "Real life ain't stories, okay? Things never turn out okay."