Her grin dropped, really dropped, while she thought about that. It was amazing how much more grown-up she looked without the sugar and the wide eyes. There were a lot of reasons, but...

"Well, mostly 'cause I think Nico and the others back home would all completely freak out," she said, nodding to herself as if agreeing with her own point. "If I was just suddenly not acting like me, they might think something was wrong."