Raph wanted to reach out and take her hand just like before, but resisted this time, not sure if it'd be welcome. He couldn't keep doing that, being touchy-feely. For one, he wasn't exactly a touchy-feely guy (or so he liked to tell himself) and for two, he didn't want to overstep any boundaries.

"Maybe you're right that no one really feels normal. Or maybe it's just normal to feel a little lost sometimes."

He certainly had. Which had been the motivation behind just about every one-sided conversation he'd ever had with Spike.

"Like when I was younger -" Wait, was he talking about the kind of stuff he talked about to Spike to another actual person? Okay, so maybe he was. It felt...okay to. Like talking to Spike, except she talked back, and wasn't insanely possessive.

"My brothers are all pretty happy people, you know? You've met Mikey. There was this point when we were younger that we realized there probably wouldn't ever be a place for us up on the surface. Donnie dealt with it by throwing himself head first into all his tech. Mikey just bounces his way through everything and keeps thinking we'll be accepted somehow. Leo just focused on our family; he has the rest of us and that's good enough for him."

It went unspoken, for a moment, how he'd dealt with it, as he tried to find words for it.